The Fat Man Diaries Day 19 (04/30/10)

Woke up to 303.2 lbs this morning. I'm not stressing it at this point. I'm exercising regularly, and I can feel some changes in my body. I'm still having the appetite problem, and that's why there hasn't been any weight loss today. Yesterday was the first time I had 3 full meals all week. The only problem was that they consisted of frozen pizza and Chinese food. For some reason the junk food doesn't give me any nausea, and I have no problem getting that food down my gullet. I'll mix it up a little today between some good and bad foods and see where I land.

I feel like this blog is getting redundant with my day to day activities. I was tired again when I woke up this morning. I considered staying in bed, but thank God I've made a commitment for at least the next 5 weeks. I was late to class, but it was ok because I was the only in class today. Most people don't like this because they feel like Chris is going to be harder on them. I don't mind it because I feel like Chris can concentrate more on me, and adjust the class to what I need. That's pretty much what he did today too. It was mostly cardio today, so I was breathing like a pervert after class. I swear I lose at least 2 lbs of water during each class. It makes for a very sexy looking, sweaty, fat man.

Like many people, I often doubt myself. Some days are great, and I'm on top of the world. Other days I wonder if I'm wasting my time with this whole challenge. It's those times that I need a reminder as to what I'm working toward. I don't expect to look like Brad Pitt or George Clooney or whoever the latest Hollywood heartthrob is. I do expect to lose weight and get healthy. I expect to stay that way too. It's during those difficult times that we all need the most help; that's when we need some sort of inspiration. Here's a song I hear at the gym a lot, and it does kind of motivate me. Maybe it will help you too: Kanye West - Stronger.